Any channelers and mediums out there afraid to come out of the closet as a weirdo? Want to hear about my first channeling story and learn how to identify psychic gifts you may have ? The first person I ever channeled was Jesus Christ, it’s taken me 12 years to come out about it, but I am out of the closet now baby! I didn’t just come out as medium and a shamanic healer. I came out as a Lyran,Pleiadian, Blue-Ray Starseed and light-worker -like balls to the wall 😂😂😂😂 I found out I was a Starseed first, then Pleiadian, then a healer, then a shaman, then psychic, and then a medium, what I mean is I discovered all the words and could describe all that I was already doing in that order. The whole Starseed thing sounds absolutely crazy I know it took me awhile to get comfortable with the concept, but yet many talk about these crystal children, indigos and acknowledge this. It was kind of new for me too you don’t need to beleive it or buy into it if you don’t resonate. Your Starseed markings can show up in your natal chart, I am not sure if all Astrologers know how to locate them but the idea that we all come from the stars is not really too crazy. Many world religions say we are all luminous beings of light, even science says everything started with a big bang.
Matthew 2:1-2 “Jesus was born in Bethlehem in Judea, during the reign of King Herod. About that time some wise men from eastern lands arrived in Jerusalem, asking, and asked, “Where is the one who has been born king of the Jews? We saw his star when it rose and have come to worship him.”
What is interesting to note is that I was having many very advanced spiritual experiences and was shamanically journeying way before I had ever met any other healers or Starseeds, and before I knew the words for everything. Starseeds have many gifts and abilities! Think Harry Potter minus Hogwarts. I always had gifts and abilities I just kept it to myself because (1) I didn’t have words to describe my experiences and I didn’t have mentors, (2)my family would have called me crazy, and (3) I just couldn’t really speak or communicate about about my internal world, my emotions, or things I saw very well, and( 4) I felt my connection with spirit and the earth was very sacred and didn’t have anyone I felt that was worthy enough to share it with at the time. If I would have shared some of these things and someone laughed I would have felt devastated and like I dishonored the ancestors and spirits. I was also visual thinker and I could not always describe what I was seeing in my mind eye. I grew up always having very vivid dreams and had a huge imagination.
I’ve had two spiritual awakenings that got me to this place over the course of 12 years. My first awakening was when I first began to channel consciously and when I discovered God was real. Here is the short version. I was going through a lot of loss;a break up with my first love of five years, my best friend who I did everything with moved five states away , my aunt I adored and the only relative I was very close to died, 911 happened, I lost my car, I lost my job, I started moving around a lot and I was a wreck. I was a horrible country song hot mess! I was bulimic and had no one to talk to or turn to and I could barely function but I still had to work every day. I never had family to help me ever financially and the person that would have helped me had just died! I was struggling and deeply suicidal. I began meditating and chanting and looking for answers and quick relief. Then something crazy happened. I got really sick one night while I was living in Boston and I left my body completely and I saw myself as a ball of light! I saw past lives,dimensions, it was awesome -until the point where I remembered this current life and that I was “Alexis ” right now. I had no fear there at all, It was all very normal. I was in the void then the hall of records, then I went memory hopping but every memory felt very real. I was with my aunt that had just died. I was told recently I was trying to come home I was done with this life and she forced me to remember and come back home. You can travel at the speed of light because you are basically a particle of light. I’ve seen things from a particle point of view. The heavy vibration of fear cannot exist in those higher dimensions and does not so becoming afraid was my ticket back here it’s like we are bogged down in stupid fears here. The moment I remembered this life I panicked and immediately fell back here because I became self conscious and mind identified.
When I got back I was shaking I was so terrified at what I had just seen? I am still almost positive that all we would need to do to get back there is to have perfect faith and absolute christlike love. The limitations we think exist don’t really exist, kind of like how they explain in the matrix, and quantum physics. So on some level I am making myself stay here out of free-will. Mind over matter or just get out of your mind completely. Months passed after that experience maybe a year but I was forever radically changed by the experience it was the beginning of a deep transformation. I immediately got on my knees and started talking to god and apologizing and did what I was told to do to get better and help myself. I started living my life on purpose and consciously and I started becoming aware of all my thoughts and how I treated every person. I became very deep and esoteric and intense. My diet changed; I was eating organic, vegetarian, I was only using organic chemical free products, dressing differently, stopped sexual relationships, started going to pow wows and fasting. It was very strange! My friends looked at me super strangely. They couldn’t believe that I would want to read mediate and hike all weekend instead of go out dancing but I didn’t. I mean I was acting super strange! I also had never believed in god and did not grow up with religion but after that experience I ” just knew” like most starseeds I wanted to know a lot more!
I was going to therapy and doing intense inner child work and I began hearing; “seek and you shall find” in my head one day and I felt like I was being guided to read or watch or listen to certain things and so I began seeking- reading this book or that,and seeing signs and having synchronicities. Then one day I was guided to read the bible but only the new testament at that time. I had been guided to a lot before I got to the bible which I now understand. I was guided to read Matthew and I knew I was channeling Jesus and that he was guiding me. Once I knew I was channeling him we began to have this telepathic conversation I remember crying starting to see that everything around me was alive! It was so awesome talking to Jesus it was like the long lost best friend you totally jibe with and get along well with and agree with. I took on a painful lonely life so it was so just so magical! He is a very wise and loving soul and I will write more later on what he taught me and led me to and what I remember from his teachings. Jesus was only there to help guide me and teach me so I never felt the need to tell anyone. It reminded of the bible passage Matthew 7:6 “Do not give dogs what is holy; do not throw your pearls before swine. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces” I felt it was ALL TOO SACRED to talk about and I had this discipline like a monk and was also channeling ancestors and I just couldn’t talk to anyone I didn’t think they would understand and I would have felt very upset if they put any of my ancestors or Jesus down ( I had too much ego then) and my ancestors that I was also channeling at that time were telling me I was royalty. I have recently also had an astrologer also tell me I had royal markings, but trust me -I am very humble and have no idea what that means anyways! You won’t ever hear me walking around saying that but at that time It was all just a lot to take in.
I had never even heard of channeling! I would have never thought at that time what I was doing was channeling like the psychic mediums I had always heard of which I was told was EVIL. This whole thing was mentally very foreign but my body seemed to do and remember from someplace else..most likely I was guided and channeling a lot like one day out of thin air I started smudging with incense like I had done it a million times. It was a very beautiful life altering experience and awakening period that was about 4 years the real awakening and change. I will talk more about in the show so listen here this is a great chat we had with fellow starseed and Pleiadian member Angela White who wrote a book , From Sick to Bliss, Conversations with God a channeled book she was guided to write. She goes into detail about her journey and how she discovered she was channeling. It’s juicy and you can hear more about my story and a few other comments from other starseeds on the show. As the entire planet becomes more fifth dimensional and the veil thins many are going to start to awaken and have these abilities. I feel like there is a huge channeling revolution happening and we are all a part of it. Heaven is majorly communicating a lot these days.Like really! Heaven has daily blogs lol! One of my favorite channeling connections is the Channeling Erik blog and their daily interviews with various spirits. If your interested in learning about past lives and learning about various reasons we incarnate into specific issues obstacles and struggles you will love this blog.
If you are having trouble figuring out all your gifts read this article and listen to this show above we describe things in vivid detail. It may help you put some words, adjectives, and definitions to what you are already experiencing.
- You can be clairvoyant (and ‘see’ things-remote view)
- You can be clairaudient (and hear things)
- You can be clairsentient (you get lots of hunches and gut feelings.)
- You can be claircognizant (you just get information popping into your head and just know things.)
- You can be an empath (and have the ability to place yourself into the experience of another person and feel their emotions and desires.)
- You can get information from dreams.
- You can sense energy and see aurus or read them
- You can channel spirit & much more.
Coming out of the “psychic closet” is something that many people struggle with once they begin having intuitive experiences. Usually, this is because they fear being judged by others. And let’s face it: nobody wants to be labeled as a weirdo!
This fear can be so great that some people stay in the closet for years, never sharing their intuitive abilities with anyone.
Well, you know what? It’s dark and lonely in the closet. Not to mention that it smells like moth balls. Are you ready to come out of the psychic closet? Let’s talk about some things you can do to make it easier for yourself:
1. Decide on Your Comfort Zone
Some people are very comfortable being out of the psychic closet. They are perfectly fine with everyone knowing exactly who they are and what they do, and they make no apologies for it (nor should they).
For example, I have a friend who writes psychic medium on any forms that ask for an occupation. This includes all of her legal documents. Imagine that one on your tax forms! She’ll also give messages from Spirit to anyone at any time (even to her doctor during her check-up… true story!)
Most people though (including myself), are more selective about whom they share with.
But we’re talking about you here, not most people. And the most important thing to remember with all of this is:
You have to be comfortable.
This is key above all else! Here are a couple of points to consider:
You know what you can and can’t handle. For instance, if you feel that coming out of the psychic closet to your father-in-law would cause a rift in your relationship, you might want to consider not telling him. Ask yourself: Will it be worth the stress? Does it matter if this individual knows? Remember, you are so much more than just psychic, and it really is okay to keep some parts of yourself private.
On the other hand, if you are a very confident person, and really don’t care what anybody thinks, then have at it if you want to. Remember, it’s your choice.
2. Come Out of the Psychic Closet Slowly
There’s no need to have a big coming out party or walk around wearing a t-shirt that says I’m Psychic. Let things unfold slowly and naturally over time. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself.
And remember that it’s OK if you want your privacy, just don’t confuse your want for privacy to staying in the psychic closet because you feel ashamed of who you are.
Of course, you’ll probably want to share your experiences with the people who matter the most to you, but there’s no need to rush it with everyone else and here’s why: Not everyone will believe in what you do. Some will have very strong opinions and be judgmental.
If you are very new in your psychic development, these judgments could shake you enough so that you go right back into the psychic closet – and we don’t want that! So don’t rush it. Eventually, you’ll reach a point where you don’t give a hoot about what others think.
3. Get Educated
Knowledge is power! As you become educated about your abilities, your confidence will grow. And when you really understand your gifts, coming out of the psychic closet becomes so much easier! Reading books by trusted authors, taking a psychic development class, and working with a mentor are three great ways to boost your knowledge and confidence!
4. Start with Loved Ones
One of the best and safest ways to open up is to start with the people who are closest to you.
You will intuitively know who these individuals are, because they are part of your soul group. These are the people who love and accept you the way you are (faults and all!) and will usually be the least critical of you.
5. Don’t Stay in the Closet
This journey is too exciting not to share! If you feel as though your loved ones aren’t ready to accept your gifts, consider finding someone else to talk to. For instance, maybe a co-worker or friend who is also interested in metaphysics. You need someone that you can have stress-free and enjoyable conversations with. Don’t know where to find people like this? Check out tip #6.
6. Build a Support System
It’s nice to have people who understand what you are feeling and what you are going through with regards to your gifts. For instance, I love my family dearly, but they don’t understand when I talk about my clairaudience or clairsentience – but my intuitive friends do! This is why I’m going to recommend to you that you build up a support system. One way to do this is to get social!
Here are some ideas to start getting social:
1. Join a local psychic development class – I have met some of the nicest people at these classes and we’ve had a lot of laughs! New age stores often offer these types of classes.
2. Check out a local spiritualist church – This is an especially good idea if you are drawn to mediumship, as the spiritualist churches deal with spirit communication. The energy in these churches can be very loving and welcoming, and they typically offer classes to help with development.
3. Get Online – No groups in your area? No problem! Go online and get social! There are an abundance of psychics and mediums with Facebook pages. There are also:
chat rooms metaphysical groups on Facebook that you can join for free
Tip: If you are looking for a group online, take your time finding reputable people to connect with that are a good fit for you. There are some great groups out there, but some really yucky ones, too. If you feel uncomfortable or if something feels “off,” steer clear!
7. Expect the Unexpected
One thing I’ve learned over the years is that most people are okay with what I do. (I think this is due in part to psychic and mediumship becoming more mainstream thanks to famous mediums like Theresa Caputo.)
I have worked myself into nervous frenzies worried about how “this person” or “that person” would react when I told them I’m a psychic medium, and it was always fine. Sure, I got some strange looks now and then, but that’s about it. Most times my “coming out” was well received and often, people had their own intuitive stories to share with me!
For example, when my children were attending parochial school, I thought I’d never be able to tell anyone about my abilities. And then one night, I was speaking to another mom and we began discussing the American television show “Ghost Hunters.” She said she loved the show, and that was my cue to open up!
She was so supportive, and even helped me start doing readings professionally!
So, come on out of the closet and have some fun!
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